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Monday, 6 April 2020

its koh vid 19


a picture during covid-19

pengalaman waktu amik history patient sama ada nak treat as PUI, ILI, SARI ataupun xda kena mengena pun.
kadang-kadang agak stress
penah jumpa yang tak mengaku dia from high risk cluster
ada kawan penah jumpa patient lari balik
tapi alhamdulillah setakat ni daerah yan catat '0' covid-19 kes

kadang-kadang agak stress dengan yang dtg cuma kata sesak nafas, no fever, cough, travelling
claimed ada contact +ve covid pt, but after traced, that positive patient not even in IK list
even nama pun tak wujud
vitals sign tip top cun, patient can speak in full sentence, can play fon, even can drive himself to hospital.. hahhah
but what i learnt from this situation during this covid phase is,
jangan marah that patient.
yes, kita dah penat, ward kena jaga, klu ada suspect pui kita akan dipanggil, agak annoyed kadang-kadang bila jmpa patient macam ni
tapi what they need is explanation, reassurance to keep them calm
sebab sapa tak cuak kan, virus baru
we are the frontliner yang boleh consider agak knowledgeable compare to non-medical punya orang pun cuak, inikan pulak yang memang tak tau apa-apa
instead of marah diorang sebab asking for something not relate to them,
why not thank them sebab at least depa ambik 1st step untuk jumpa dr

and during this covid-19 phase
a little help dengan beli kuih-kuih makcik/pakcik yang jual kat tepi jalan pun bagus
sebab movement restriction sememangnya menjejaskan pendapatan penjual-penjual
yang mana dengan hasil jualan tu saja yang akan menampung kehdupan mereka pada masa sekarang dan hari mendatang

itu saja coretan kenangan buat diri








Tuesday, 17 March 2020

Rangkuman awal 2020

to be honest, sejak dah lama kerja ni, otak betul-betul jem. kosong idea untuk tulis apa untuk tinggalkan kenangan dalam blog bersawang ni. selalu bila bosan, akan baca-baca balik kenangan dalam blog ni. pastu malu sebab tulis entahapahapa ikut suka hati. lol


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dah habis HO akhir bulan tahun lepas. then float as MO kt ED hsb. sempat la kena satu mortality case walaupun baru ja start jadi MO. heh kenangan present case mortality tu lain macam.

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penempatan semula MO. call JKN kedah. request untuk minta hosp yang dekat dengan rumah. Alhamdulillah dapat. tapi district hospital la which is tahap susah dia tu boleh tahan. everything hang kena pikir sendiri. which one to prioritise, which one more urgent, which one need referral, which one need to discuss, which one can allow discharge. kat district hang la ho dan hang la mo. round dengan specialist kalau kena marah tadah la telinga. nak belajaq maka buat cara nak belajaq dan kena tabah la kan giteww.

tapi good side dia dekat dengan rumah. stress ja, home is everything di mana ketenangan tu ada.. hahah.. pastu hang ada masa boleh solat awal sikit. tak da la macam sebelum ni solat di hujung-hujung tanduk, patient tak ramai macam tertiary centre, ada good senior yang helpful (siap mai tolong tgk ramai-ramai time petang patient mana boleh discharge, hoi mana nk cari mo maam ni), ada procedure yg sebelum ni hang noob tapi senior ajaq --> mcm tukaq trachy mask yg sesimple alam lol.. duduk district ni hang belajaq balik mcm mana manage patient medical, simple paeds case, simple o&g case. alhamdulillah setakat ni rasa macam life is good walaupun kadang kala rindu tu masih ada kt edhsb hahah

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covid-19

virus yang tetiba megganas . very contagious. senang gila spread. tak pasti apa Allah nak tunjuk. tapi we should learn something sbb apa yang jadi tu bersebab and for us to think and learn. 
a very very small tiny virus yang kita tak nampak pun, tapi kita pecaya dia ada, sebab kita nampak orang yang tetiba sihat jadi sakit. dan sebabkan tu, kita pun takut 
dan mcm tu juga rasanya Allah tu nak ajarkan kita untuk takut pada Dia . kita tak nampak pun Allah, tapi kenapa kita tak takut Dia mcm kita takut si covid ni. something yang kita perlu fikir and muhasabah balik. 

okay thats all.
sambung tagging


Saturday, 7 March 2020

Your day


How are your days?
I’m sure some days are painful
On days like that, I’ll be by your side
So just lean on me

So I can hold you warmly
Even when the season with cold winds come

My love is only you
I’ll be the one to be your umbrella when it rains
So whenever we met
We can overcome even the hard days

When sadness comes to you
I will listen to your story

So I can hold you warmly
Even when the season with cold winds come

My love is only you
I’ll be the one to be your umbrella when it rains
So whenever we met
We can overcome even the hard days

I know how hard it’s been
I couldn’t tell you before but now I will

I’m happy because you’re here
I can’t express my love for you with any words
So whenever we met
We can overcome even the hard days

Your day- Gummy



Saturday, 8 February 2020

hai 2020!




28 years old this year.
old at age, but still im not mature enough to be at that age
phewww

a lot of things happened in 2019 and early this year 2020
i believe whether it was good or bad thing, it is for me
for me to be better
a better as a person
a better as a doctor
a better as a daughter

floating in ed after finishing houseman
i dont know whether a good choice or not (not my 1st choice actually, 1st is ORL lol)
they said power la dduk ed
but i think it is more to 'i need to change myself'
from always be at comfort zone to somewhere i can challenge myself

okay thats all as intro for 2020
pray for me
:)

Saturday, 9 November 2019

anak buah

haiiii!! let me introduce youuu, ainaa humaira in the houseeee.... my anak buah little peanut comey mengada banyak akall niii... so cuteeee!! <3

Saturday, 14 September 2019

Moody day

Assalamualaikum

HO life ni ada macam-macam perasaan. ataupun sebab dah berumur so pikir macam2 pastu kau punya perasaan tu entahapahapa....

intro apa2 ja kan.. hahha sebenarnya nak cerita satu kisah dalam satu hari ni

sekarang ni keja kat ED.. so banyak tak banyak patient yg akan mai ED tu memang tak boleh nak expect..

hari yang aku keja tu keja night shift kat yellow zone box (clerking new case) -- yellow zone out (review and referral)... dan ditakdirkan tgk jadual MO oncall, keja dgn MO yang sangat murah rezeki, ataupun term dia Jonah.. MO tu adalah MO yang sangat baik, humble, nice, helpful ahh tak tau la nak describe macam mana sebab dia sangat baik... disebabkan dia baik aku jadi risau, risau takut banyak patient mai lepas tu aku susahkan dia sebab banyak patient pending tak sempat nak clerk.. risau dia yang rasa terbeban dengan aku, risau dgn expectation dia kat aku ah bnyak la risau aku time tu... sigh

so mmg moody la aku before ke keja. p hosp awal. lpstu lepak2 dpn koop tgk manusia lalu lalang, bg tenang hati. pastu terdetik instead of aku dok risau entahapahapa, why ot aku google cari doa apa2 bila ke temat keja. so dptlah aku doa bawah ni

Image result for doa kerja

pastu berjalanla aku ke ED mcm biasa. 
lalu sebelah aku ?family pesakit ?pesakit smbil senyum pastu bagi salam. terus semangat wehh.. lain mcm sungguh.. 
pastu masuk aku ke yellow zone. UNEXPECTED. yellow zone tak ramai mcm selalu. pastu sempat pulak belajr sikit scan dgn Dr yg aku agak takut sebelum ni.. hahaha... baik ja kui3
malam dgn MO yg super nice, mashaAllah belajar scan lagi, sempat tolong green zone lagi. tak ramai patient pulak tu.. allahu time tu aku mcm 'Ya Allah nikmat tuhanmu mana yg kamu dustakan' terngiang2 kt telinga.
and at last i end up happy gila malam tu

mashaAllah kuasa doa sungguh.
very unpredictable
love <3


Wednesday, 30 January 2019

Trying


Trying to be more human today during my offday
Early morning goes well
Done with exercise and cooking spagheti for lunch
After that end up with sleeping for hoursss
Sad.

Rome wasn't built in a day

new chapter of my life

Setelah 6 bulan menyepi. So lets start with this. Assalamualaikum Segala kepujian dan kesyukuran ke hadhrat-Mu ya Allah di atas limpah rahma...